Sunday, October 20, 2013
BACK TO POST AFTER SO LONG..
SORRY ABOUT IT..
BUT TODAY I JUST WANNA SHARE MY FEELINGS AGAIN AS I FIND IT SO IRONIC THAT THERE IS NO ONE I CAN SEEM TO TURN TO AND ALL I CAN DO IS TO BLOG.
WELL, 21 YEARS LIVING IN THIS WORLD, I FINALLY WATCH TITANIC TODAY OR SHLD I SAY YTD NIGHT?
WELL, I CRIED SO MUCH... NOT JUST COS OF THE BEAUTIFUL LOVE IN THE STORYLINE BUT HOW I WISH I HAVE A BEAUTIFUL LOVE STORY ON MY OWN BUT I DOUBT SO..
YES, I ADMIT FOR ONCE I THINK I REALLY DID FALL IN LOVE. LAST TIME ALL ARE JUS CRUSH OR EYE-CANDY.. NTH BIG...
BUT NOW I THINK I REALLY DID FALL IN LOVE FOR THE 1ST TIME IN MY LIFE BUT.. I THINK I FALL FOR THE WRONG SOMEONE WHOM I CALL MY FRIEND AND A BROTHER.
I KNOW I SHOULDNT HAVE LET MYSELF FALL FOR HIM.. I SHOULD KNOW MY PLACE INSTEAD OF BEING SUCH A BITCH SOMEHOW..
BUT I GUESS THATS A PROCESS ISNT IT?
IN FACT I DO REALISE SOMETHING ALSO WHICH IS I AM SOMEONE NOT WORTH TO HAVE BEAUTIFUL LOVE LIKE OTHER PEOPLE WHO DESERVE IT MORE THAN MII...
HE DESERVE A BTR GIRL THAN MII.. HE DESERVE NTH BUT THE BEST IN MY EYES COS HE IS JUS TOO PERFECT IN MY EYES NOW NO MATTER WHAT..
YET IN CONTRARY, I AM A GIRL FILLED WITH FLAWS, UGLINESS AND NOTHING GOOD/NICE..
SO WHO AM I TO WISH THAT HE WILL FALL FOR MII ONE DAY?
WISHFUL THINKING ON MY PART... I DO KNOW...
BUT NOW I DO HAVE A HARD TIME FORGETTING HIM..
I NEED TIME AND STRENGTH..
I DUNNO HOW MUCH TIME I NEED.. BUT ALL I KNOW IS I NEED IT..
ALTHOUGH I REALISE IT NOT TOO LONG AGO ONLY THAT I FALL FOR HIM ALREADY BUT DUE TO THE FACT THAT I KNOW I AM NOT A PERFECT GIRL FOR HIM... THUS I KNOW I HAVE TO LET GO NO MATTER WHAT...
I DUN WAN TO BE A BURDEN TO HIM..OR A PEST...
ALL I CAN WISH FOR IS JUS PURE FRIENDSHIP... BUT IN ORDER TO ACHIEVE THAT, I NEED TO GET OVER THIS FEELING...
I HOPE I AM NOT TOO BAD AS A FRIEND NO MATTER HOW UGLY AND FULL OF FLAWS..
2:16 AM