Sunday, January 16, 2011
HELLO.
TDY I HAVE GOT AN ANS I NEEDED TO ALLOW MII TO MOVE ON..
I HAVE MADE A PROMISE TO MYSELF THAT I WILL NOT LET MYSELF BE INDULGE IN SORROW EVEN IF THE ANS GIVEN TO MII IS NOT WHAT I WISH IT IS..
THOUGH I AM STILL FEELING UPSET NOW BUT I KNOW I GOT MY FRIENDS WHO WILL SUPPORT MII AND HELP MII MOVE ON AND GET OVER IT ASAP..
WELL, I FEEL SO EMOTIONAL IN A WAY I NV FELT BEFORE AS IT SEEMS THAT MANY PARTS OF MII IS GONE...
I WANNA FIND STH TO DISTRACT MII BUT IT HAS NO USE AT ALL..
I AM REALLY TYRING HARD TO FORGET LE BUT U ALL THINK IT IS EASY TO DO SO??
WELL, ACTUALLY IS NOT EASY AT ALL!
TOTALLY NOT EASY..
I REALLY WONDER WHY THERE IS SUCH THING CALL INFATUATION, CRUSH,LOVE,LIKE AND ETC IN THE WORLD THAT IS SO HEART BREAKING TO PPL?
IS THERE REALLY ANOTHER HALF THAT EXIST IN THE WORLD?
IF THERE IS, THEN Y ARE SOME STILL SINGLE AND ALONE IN THIS WORLD?
IRONIC ISNT IT?
WELL, AT LEAST I AM TRYING TO FIGURE OUT STH IN ORDER TO DISTRACT MYSELF MORE...
SOMETIME I ALSO DO WONDER Y DID THIS PERSON COME INTO MY LIFE AND MESS EVERYTHING UP?
I WONDER WHAT WILL HAPPEN IF I AM NOT IN THE SEC SCHOOL I AM IN LAST TIME AND NOW, WHAT STATE WILL I BE IN?
WORSE THAN NOW OR BTR THAN NOW??
I DO HOPE IS BETTER BUT THERE IS NO TURNING BACK ISNT IT?
IF THERE IS STH I CAN DO IF TIME CAN BE TURNED BACK, I WILL WISH THAT I AM NV BORN INTO THIS WORLD TO BRING MISERY TO PPL AND MYSELF.
PLUS, EVER SINCE YOUNG, I HAVE ALR HATED MYSELF LIKE ZILLIONS AND ZILLIONS TIME TILL NOW...
SO I WONDER Y AM I ON THIS EARTH FOR??
SINCE I CAN HATE MYSELF SO MUCH...
AND MAYBE WHOEVER MAY ALSO HATE MII TTM TOO..
HOW I WISH I HAVE GOT SOMEONE BY MY SIDE NOW..BUT THERE IS ALWAYS NO ONE THERE WHEN I WISH THAT WHEN I EVER TURN ARD, SOMEONE IS THERE, READY TO JUS BE BY MY SIDE AND ACC MII..
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