Saturday, January 1, 2011
HELLO~~!
HERE TO POST LE..HEHEHS..
NOW THINKING BACK, I FEEL LIKE I KINDA LIVE MY LIFE LIKE A LOSER WHEREBY I DID NTH THAT IS WORTH MY VALUE AND IT IS LIKE I WASTE MY TIME LIKE SIAO..
NOW I KNOW WHY I KEEP FEELING EMPTY ALR..
COS I AM JUS A LOSER WHO DUNNO HOW TO GET THINGS RIGHT TOTALLY..
THIS NEW YEAR IS IT A YEAR TO START AFRESH??
I REALLY WONDER HOW TO START AFRESH!!
I FEEL LIKE EVER SINCE AN EVENT THAT HAPPEN IN MY LIFE, I AM TOTALLY LIVING LIKE A ZOMBIE...
MAYBE NOT..COS I GOT FEELING AT LEAST THOUGH IT IS A FEELING OF NUMBNESS IN MY HEART!!
NOW I DUNNO HOW TO FACE EVERYONE TOTALLY!!!
NOW ALL KIND OF FEELINGS ARE IN MII THAT WAS HARD TO DESCRIBE AND OVERALL, I JUS FEEL SO IDIOTIC!!!
WHY AM I BORN IN THE 1ST PLACE WHEN I AM HERE TO BE A BURDEN TO PPL AND BORN TO MAKE MYSELF HATE MYSELF???
THE ONLY MOTIVATION NOW I SHOULD SAY IS MY IDOL BAH..
COS NOW NO MATTER WHERE I AM NOW, I DUN SEEM TO FIND A SENSE OF BELONGING AT ALL!!!
TO MANY PPL, I AM JUS AN EMO KID WHO ALWAYS THINK NEGATIVELY BUT..
WHO THE HELL IN THIS WORLD LIKE T BE A EMO KID WHEN THEY CAN LIVE THEIR LIVE AS COLOURFUL AS THEY WANT??
I AM NOT SAYING MY WORLD IS GREYISH OR WHAT BUT I JUS DUN SEE MUCH HOPE IN THIS WORLD AT ALL...
I DUN SEE THE MEANING OF MII BEING IN THIS WORLD TOTALLY!
DEATH TO MII ON THE OTHER HAND IS A SCARY CHOICE FOR MII.. TO BE FRANK, I AM JUS A PERSON WHO IS SCARE OF DEATH BUT WHO IS NOT??
ESP WHEN U R FACING DEATH AS IN U R LEAVING UR LOVED ONES!!
I LOVE MY FAMILY BUT SAD TO SAY.. IN THE FAMILY I DUN SEE MUCH HOPE TOO..
SIGH..
NOW IN 2011, I JUS HOPE TO SEE HOPE AND MOVE ON IN A MORE POSITIVE WAY..
HOPE THOSE PPL WHO THINK ALIKE WILL BE ABLE TO ACHIEVE THIS GOAL.. :)
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